30-Day Challenge: Welcome to the End

We've reached it. The end. Finally. It's over. Pretty much, anyway.



But I did so bad.

Wow. I did so bad. I kinda let go around the end, just did the breathing and totally didn't write the 5 things, the 4 things, or the bucket list stuff. I thought my challenge choice would work for someone procrastinating like me. Well. Apparently, that didn't really work. At least I kept up with two things every day. Holy cake.

So let's go over everything. My purpose with this challenge was to improve myself and better handle my mental disorders. That purpose has been achieved, for the most part. That was also my goal. It wasn't easy, especially since my mental disorders hindered me quite a bit, but I managed to do it. Sure, I revised some things along the way (such as writing the 5 and 4 things down so I didn't repeat and also made a rule to not repeat on those) but even so, it was still difficult.

Honestly, I thought it was fun. It gave me something to do and it added to my day. I did end up starting to ignore the notification on my phone telling me to write the 5 and 4 things and to add to my bucket list, which was honestly quite stupid of me to do. Despite that, I think it helped like I thought it would. I might want to add more deep breaths, to be honest. Like in yoga. I probably should've done that differently. Three deep breaths more than three times a day.

So to anyone wanting to do this challenge, here's some advice: STAY ON YOUR GAME. This isn't easy (thus why it's called a challenge) and it's really easy to just totally forget to do pretty much anything on the list of five things. I would've if it weren't for the notifications (even though I ignored the more important one).

Remember: You can do this.

So, welcome to the end, mi amigos y amigas. I hope my fellow peers didn't suck as bad as I did at this. Okay, maybe at least one or two so I know I didn't suck alone. For now, it's the end of one series of blog entries....

....and majestically jumping to the next.

That's all I have for you guys. Peace out!

30-Day Challenge: Halfway There!

Oh yeah. Halfway there.

Hello, hello, my wonderful people. We're at the halfway point of this challenge. How have I kept up?

Well.

I definitely have fallen behind a little on some things. That's what catching up is for, though!

....I have no integrity. I really need to stop being so busy.

On the other paw, I now get to work my brain more to come up with things I love about myself and life and for the bucket list. Hopefully, everyone else is doing better than I am. Besides forgetting to do some things, it's otherwise going very well. I feel happier overall and like I'm doing way better.

To anyone just now reading, here's the plan for my 30-Day Challenge:

• Name 5 things I love about myself
• Name 4 things I love about life/being alive
• Take 3 deep breaths 3 times a day
• Make 2 people smile and/or laugh
• Add 1 thing to my bucket list
• And as a bonus, write on Wattpad or on here.

My goal with this is to improve my well being and how I handle my mental disorders better so I can feel better about myself and so I can learn to not hate or fear my mental disorders but instead to respect them. Despite the difficulties with keeping up with all five things every day, I haven't really revised anything other than to just catch up if I miss something one day and to write down the five things and the four things. There were a few things I considered adding but I figured everything to do was difficult to remember enough as it is along with three different medications a day (at least two of them I do around the same time. Woo.).

The difficulties with this challenge mainly are actually remembering to do them. The only things I've managed to keep up with are the deep breaths and making two people smile and laugh every day. Generally, it happens to have been the same two people most days. Those are probably the easier parts of this. The harder parts are probably the five things, the four things, and the bucket list, as all those require me to have something on hand, either a computer or my bucket list and a pen. Despite those minor annoyances, I've learned a lot about myself, like how to better handle my mental disorders when they do their thing and the things I tend to do when they are doing their thing. This challenge has been meeting my expectations even more so than I expected with how much it's been helping me.

So I have those problems. How do I fix them to keep up with the things I have to do each day? I figure having a reminder on my phone like I do my deep breathing will definitely help. Asking the two closest people in my life to remind me to do these things would also be helpful. The main problem is that I forget to do the things, so having the constant reminder and not doing anything until they're done would likely help me keep up.

Yeah. Go having friends.

I had a few doubts about this thing, but I'm very grateful I've been doing it. The finish line is in sight, and I will make sure at least once during this thing I actually do all five (maybe even the bonus as well) things before the end of the day. Maybe that'll be a mini challenge. Challengeception. Woo. That's all I have at the moment so peace out people scouts.

No, I don't have a small obsession over cats.

It's a large one.

The Challenge So Far

Guess what?

I'm back.

Hello, hello! So here's an update on how the challenge is going so far.

I've been forgetting a few things (such as putting something on the bucket list or writing the things I love about life and myself) some days but I'll do a 'catch up' as I call it. I'll just do whatever I forgot twice; once for the day I missed doing it, and once for that day. Despite a few things I missed every now and then, I've managed to keep up! What's better is I can feel myself improving. I don't feel like I have as much anxiety and I feel more relaxed. It could be the medication I got started on, but I'm gonna say this challenge is definitely helping. My therapist thought it was a cool thing too and he said he's impressed and proud that I'm trying so hard to improve myself and help kick the metaphorical butt of my mental disorders. Woo.

I do find it interesting how this challenge is also about helping myself with my mental disorders as well as getting a grade in class. Woah. School is helping me in a healthy way.

At first, my closest friend and my significant other both would look at me weird when I'd stop mid-conversation to do my breathing, but now they're starting to remind me. This is very helpful since sometimes the reminder on my phone doesn't work or I won't have my phone on me. With their help, it's starting to be a thing I don't have to have a reminder for (though naturally, I will still have those helpful little nubs because I'm a forgetful little nerd). At first the breathing and such was a chore, but now I enjoy doing these things. I'm definitely challenged to come up with five different things I love about myself and four different things I love about life as I've nearly repeated so many times and I run out of ideas quicker since I'm naming so many things. However, I must prevail!

I am enjoying the challenge so far. I feel like a new 'me' is going to emerge, a 'me' who can feel the depression and the anxiety, accept it, and move on. While perusing the interwebs, I found this quote:

And I thought it fit my goal with this challenge pretty well. While I was thinking about having a goal with this challenge, I wondered if my fellow classmates had any major goals with theirs besides getting a grade.

I hope my classmates are doing okay with their challenges. If you're a classmate reading this, good luck broskis. If you're a reader from Wattpad, oh hai. You guys get a bigger peek into the real me instead of the alias I use for Wattpad. If you're some random person who stumbled here, oh hai. How's it goin'?

That's all for now, I suppose. I'm running out of things to say and I have to save my words for later. Peace out!