The Challenge So Far

Guess what?

I'm back.

Hello, hello! So here's an update on how the challenge is going so far.

I've been forgetting a few things (such as putting something on the bucket list or writing the things I love about life and myself) some days but I'll do a 'catch up' as I call it. I'll just do whatever I forgot twice; once for the day I missed doing it, and once for that day. Despite a few things I missed every now and then, I've managed to keep up! What's better is I can feel myself improving. I don't feel like I have as much anxiety and I feel more relaxed. It could be the medication I got started on, but I'm gonna say this challenge is definitely helping. My therapist thought it was a cool thing too and he said he's impressed and proud that I'm trying so hard to improve myself and help kick the metaphorical butt of my mental disorders. Woo.

I do find it interesting how this challenge is also about helping myself with my mental disorders as well as getting a grade in class. Woah. School is helping me in a healthy way.

At first, my closest friend and my significant other both would look at me weird when I'd stop mid-conversation to do my breathing, but now they're starting to remind me. This is very helpful since sometimes the reminder on my phone doesn't work or I won't have my phone on me. With their help, it's starting to be a thing I don't have to have a reminder for (though naturally, I will still have those helpful little nubs because I'm a forgetful little nerd). At first the breathing and such was a chore, but now I enjoy doing these things. I'm definitely challenged to come up with five different things I love about myself and four different things I love about life as I've nearly repeated so many times and I run out of ideas quicker since I'm naming so many things. However, I must prevail!

I am enjoying the challenge so far. I feel like a new 'me' is going to emerge, a 'me' who can feel the depression and the anxiety, accept it, and move on. While perusing the interwebs, I found this quote:

And I thought it fit my goal with this challenge pretty well. While I was thinking about having a goal with this challenge, I wondered if my fellow classmates had any major goals with theirs besides getting a grade.

I hope my classmates are doing okay with their challenges. If you're a classmate reading this, good luck broskis. If you're a reader from Wattpad, oh hai. You guys get a bigger peek into the real me instead of the alias I use for Wattpad. If you're some random person who stumbled here, oh hai. How's it goin'?

That's all for now, I suppose. I'm running out of things to say and I have to save my words for later. Peace out!